Joel huffs out a laugh at the question, almost rolling his eyes up at Spencer. "I always want you," he answers as if such a thing should be obvious and he thinks it should be. He's spent such a long time on his own and wanting Spencer had come as something of a surprise to him, but now that he's gotten comfortable with it, now that they're here, there's never any question in Joel's mind that he wants Spencer. At any point in time on any day at all, Spencer could turn to him and simply gesture with his head toward a private place and Joel knows he would be more than happy and more than ready to go in an instant. He always wants Spencer, that's the beginning and end of it. He wants Spencer and no one else. And it's so much easier to say than anything else, not because it's more true, but because it could mean almost anything. He's still trying to get comfortable with the more expressive things he might say in bed, but that's easy enough. I want you. It's all he ever wants when they're here. He wants Spencer and he wants to make him happy.

Reaching out with his good hand, he slides his palm up Spencer's thigh and then over the curve of his ass, trying to urge him a little closer. He smiles when Spencer leans down and kisses him, then opens his eyes and looks up at Spencer, his hand still on his ass. He squeezes a little, his smile growing just the slightest bit wicked and he knows he isn't as good at all of this as Spencer is, he knows he doesn't quite achieve it, but he tries.

"I'm okay," he promises, squeezing again, a little harder this time. "I promise, I'm okay. I want this. You... you can't know how badly I want you all the time and I'm okay." If he were to try to get up and press Spencer down on the bed, if he had to support his weight on his arm or try to move around much, then he knows it would hurt, but like this, lying on his back still, Spencer has most of the control and Joel won't have to move as much. He'll be more than okay and he wants this. Wetting his lower lip with the tip of his tongue, he glances down at Spencer's cock and lets out a small, soft groan at the sight of him. It never stops surprising Joel just how beautiful his husband is. Somehow someone this incredible has decided that he wants Joel and he knows how lucky he is, how unlikely it would be with anyone else. But he and Spencer just fit.

"Please," he murmurs, his gaze flicking over Spencer's body, up to meet his. "Please. I want you. Let me do this for you." It's certainly not only for Spencer, not be a long shot, not when he enjoys having Spencer in his mouth so much, but he doesn't want to leave his husband without paying some attention to him in return. That's not what their sex life is about, it isn't that he thinks Spencer expects it, but he wants to do it. It's important that he make Spencer feel as good as Spencer has made him feel. It's important that he remind his husband just how much he loves doing all of this for him. It's as much for him as it is for Spencer.