Joel Waters-Baker (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
just_another) wrote2014-10-20 09:50 am
just_another) wrote2014-10-20 09:50 am
[closed - Nerium]
She had told him to seek her at her manor, which he takes to mean he'll be able to approach this time, but he's nervous all the same. It isn't just going to her manor on his own, it isn't that she'd sent him a bird that spoke in her voice, it's everything that's happening. He's nervous and he's scared and all he wants is for it to be dealt with, but he's also a little afraid of what that might mean.
If what he's read is true, banishing whatever thing is inside him means changing his powers. If he's really lived with this thing slowly trying to take over for the past twelve years, it means undoing a significant portion of his life as a witch and the thought terrifies him. He doesn't know which of his powers its trying to suppress, he doesn't know what might be lurking under it. There's a part of him that worries they might be harder to control, that he might not be as good at healing as he likes to think.
But he can't live this way. With something else inside his head giving him these awful dreams, giving him powers he shouldn't have access to, feeding him anger that's not truly his. He can't live this way with a husband and with a child on the way.
So he goes to Nerium's manor with the book he's been reading and one of his hands shoved nervously into his pocket.
He knows enough to have brought her something and maybe a loaf of pumpkin bread isn't the typical offering one things, but it's what Joel has brought. It's homemade, he baked it himself, but he feels sort of stupid all the same. It's too late to take it back now, though, and he approaches the door, the book in his bag, the pumpkin loaf in his hand.
If what he's read is true, banishing whatever thing is inside him means changing his powers. If he's really lived with this thing slowly trying to take over for the past twelve years, it means undoing a significant portion of his life as a witch and the thought terrifies him. He doesn't know which of his powers its trying to suppress, he doesn't know what might be lurking under it. There's a part of him that worries they might be harder to control, that he might not be as good at healing as he likes to think.
But he can't live this way. With something else inside his head giving him these awful dreams, giving him powers he shouldn't have access to, feeding him anger that's not truly his. He can't live this way with a husband and with a child on the way.
So he goes to Nerium's manor with the book he's been reading and one of his hands shoved nervously into his pocket.
He knows enough to have brought her something and maybe a loaf of pumpkin bread isn't the typical offering one things, but it's what Joel has brought. It's homemade, he baked it himself, but he feels sort of stupid all the same. It's too late to take it back now, though, and he approaches the door, the book in his bag, the pumpkin loaf in his hand.