"Jesus, Spencer," Joel breathes, his gaze drifting down, watching his husband's cock moving through his own fist and Joel wants to do nothing more than just touch him. His hand slides out of Spencer's hair, down to cup the back of his neck and he ducks his head at the same time, pressing kisses against Spencer's warm skin, his tongue flicking out against the hollow of his throat. He could just watch and he knows that. He could let Spencer continue to stroke himself, he could just hold onto him and help his husband ride out his orgasm, but he doesn't want that. As much as he loves watching, as much as he loves seeing Spencer's cock moving through the circle of his fist, as much as it sends little sparks of pleasure through his body even though he's only just come himself, he wants to do more than that. He wants to take a much more active part in this, even if he can't give Spencer everything he would on a normal day.
"Come up here," he murmurs, managing to get another chest just above Spencer's collarbone before he can't duck down any further without hurting himself. Things like this, they're still a little difficult for him. Spencer has found that confidence he needs to say all sorts of things to Joel, things he never would have expected, but he'd had that almost from the beginning. It had truly surprised Joel at first, but he's loved it right from the start. It's so unexpected, which is part of what makes it such a turn on, knowing there's no one in this town who has any idea the sorts of dirty things that can come out of Spencer's mouth. They're all just for Joel, every last syllable, and he loves it. But although he tries, he knows he isn't very good at it himself. He falters and feels silly. It's the only time he still stutters when he's speaking to Spencer, but he tries and he thinks that's probably more than enough for Spencer.
"I-I want you to... I want you in my mouth," he says and he blushes fiercely, but at least he manages to get the words out with minimal stuttering. "Please, I want to do that for you." And they had done it like that that day on the couch in the bookstore. Joel had tried to be so careful with Spencer that day, afraid he'd thrust too hard and hurt his husband, but it had felt amazing and while he might not be able to do much, he can certainly do that. He can certainly take Spencer into his mouth and let him do whatever he wants with him. There's no way he can tell Spencer just how badly he wants it without blushing further, without stammering and tripping over his words, so he just grabs a pillow from further up the bed and pushes it under his head, then wets his lips and looks at Spencer again.
He loves him so much. That's the one thing that always stands out to him, the one thing he thinks time and time again. He loves Spencer so much more than he had ever realized would be possible. Not a day goes by when it doesn't somehow increase, when Spencer does something that makes Joel smile and makes him realize all over again just how lucky he is and how happy he gets to be for the rest of his life because he gets to spend it with this man. And he'll do anything in his power, anything at all to be able to return even a fraction of that.
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"Come up here," he murmurs, managing to get another chest just above Spencer's collarbone before he can't duck down any further without hurting himself. Things like this, they're still a little difficult for him. Spencer has found that confidence he needs to say all sorts of things to Joel, things he never would have expected, but he'd had that almost from the beginning. It had truly surprised Joel at first, but he's loved it right from the start. It's so unexpected, which is part of what makes it such a turn on, knowing there's no one in this town who has any idea the sorts of dirty things that can come out of Spencer's mouth. They're all just for Joel, every last syllable, and he loves it. But although he tries, he knows he isn't very good at it himself. He falters and feels silly. It's the only time he still stutters when he's speaking to Spencer, but he tries and he thinks that's probably more than enough for Spencer.
"I-I want you to... I want you in my mouth," he says and he blushes fiercely, but at least he manages to get the words out with minimal stuttering. "Please, I want to do that for you." And they had done it like that that day on the couch in the bookstore. Joel had tried to be so careful with Spencer that day, afraid he'd thrust too hard and hurt his husband, but it had felt amazing and while he might not be able to do much, he can certainly do that. He can certainly take Spencer into his mouth and let him do whatever he wants with him. There's no way he can tell Spencer just how badly he wants it without blushing further, without stammering and tripping over his words, so he just grabs a pillow from further up the bed and pushes it under his head, then wets his lips and looks at Spencer again.
He loves him so much. That's the one thing that always stands out to him, the one thing he thinks time and time again. He loves Spencer so much more than he had ever realized would be possible. Not a day goes by when it doesn't somehow increase, when Spencer does something that makes Joel smile and makes him realize all over again just how lucky he is and how happy he gets to be for the rest of his life because he gets to spend it with this man. And he'll do anything in his power, anything at all to be able to return even a fraction of that.