Joel looks down at Lara's hand on his, studying their fingers instead of looking up at her because he's afraid of what she might see if he meets her gaze. He shakes his head. "The doctors made me leave once they started to work on his hand and I wanted... I went to his house and cleaned up the broken glass and I thought about staying, but my wrist hurt, so I left just to fill my prescription and then..."

Then he hadn't been able to go back. Then he'd been too ashamed to face Spencer again. Then he'd come back here and gotten drunk.