"He's alive," Joel says, which isn't okay, he knows it's not okay, but alive is a lot better than what he knows Mark wanted to do to Spencer. "His fingers are broken, but he's alive." And he shouldn't have to be alone right now, but Joel can't seem to make himself get over his own fear and actually go see him.

"No, you can stay," he adds a second later, blinking up at Bach. "It's fine, it's good, I'm... company is good."