Joel closes his eyes at the feel of her hand against his hair and it's surprising, but he feels a little better. He's never been good at taking comfort from others, but right now he needs it so desperately and he's so tired of fighting the person he's been trying to be for so long than he just gives in to it.

"He's safe," he echoes, opening his eyes and meeting Lara's gaze. He nods, knowing it's true, but safe and okay are very different things. And Joel just wants Spencer to be okay. "And I'm drinking like an idiot alone in my store until I drunkenly text the people I've been a jerk to over the past week. I should be with him. What's wrong with me?"